Wednesday, April 18, 2012

Let the Food War Begin!

River has recently given up any sort of taste for food.  Not just the typical veggies that some kids boycott.  It's the sweet stuff too.  He's never like juice (which isn't a bad thing), and won't even eat pancakes with syrup!!!  One time we thought we would be all sweet and surprise the boys with Hartzler's ice cream.   River gagged and acted like he was dying.  What a weirdo! It's chocolate ice cream!  Chocolate!   And I know what everyone says....'He won't starve himself!'  But I am actually quite sick of hearing that.  He might not actually faint from malnourishment or walk around with a bloated belly from starvation, but the truth is....he is not getting the nourishment his little body needs.  And after his latest iron test, there have proven to be some issues with anemia.  So....the food war is on!  I found a cookbook that masquerades as kids food while packed full of spinach, squash, and numerous other purees.  Spinach brownies?  Macaroni and cheese with a cauliflower and sweet potato puree added to the sauce?  Oh yeah, I am getting sneaky.  But shhhh....don't tell.

I will update you on how he handles this new adventure of food.  I really hope that it helps as much as I think it will.  For all of you other moms who have picky picky eaters, it might be well worth the $13. 


Wish me luck!


Monday, April 16, 2012

...In A Nutshell...

Today...
  • got laughed at for my Marge Simpson laugh...thank you laryngitis
  • almost got attacked by 2 large schnauzers
  • watched the boys have their daily dance party
  • witnessed River actually ingest food!!!
  • enjoyed the 2nd day of my husband's 5 month hiatus from school
  • revelled in River's sweet nuzzles as he drifted off to sleep twirling my hair
  • laughed at Israel's plans of villainous villainy towards his friend whom he plans on 'trapping'
  • had fun putting River's naked bathtub bum up to the window to make Israel laugh while he enjoyed a popsicle on the picnic table
  • marvelled at the warmth and beauty of the day and my family

Thursday, April 12, 2012

Are you Jealous Yet?

   There has been so much going on lately that my brain feels like it's been scattered around like a dead man's ashes.  River, now 18-months-old, has recently boycotted food AND sleep, and Israel, thank God, is almost done with school for the year. 
   Between running errands, cleaning and organizing for our up-and-coming move, and this little tiny boy inside of my uterus, I have been ready to collapse with exhaustion!  My belly is huge and I have two more months to go.  Oh boy.  Some days the baby (in utero) is so frantic with movement that I feel at any moment some crazy alien thing is going to spew out of my stomach like SigourneyWeaver in Aliens.  Sorry little baby.  I know you will be much cuter and way less homicidal upon your arrival.  Point being....I think this baby is like 25 inches long already and is practicing to be an astronaut or a gymnast of something.
   Contrary to what I have already said, I do enjoy being pregnant.  This time around I just feel like an overstuffed turkey.  I'm sure it has nothing to do with the sundae's and sweets.  That seems unlikely.  It's probably more about the real life human being that is sprouting in my womb.  I haven't gained any more weight than I did my last pregnancy, it's just more compact this time....hence the overstuffed turkey feeling. 
   So for now all I can do is suck it up, eat a little better, keep basting, and wait for the timer to go off.  Hopefully between now and then, I can enjoy my lack of life-altering pain, stop whining about it, and get ready for the joy that awaits us.
  
  

Thursday, April 5, 2012

A Light in the Darkness

   Darkness is kind of a funny thing.  It doesn't somehow eerily produce ill-begotten fantasies.  The same occurrences and beasts meander in the day as well.  Somehow though, we have subconsciously learned to give power to the dark.  Maybe it's those childhood memories of fear in the night, the suspense of what lay around the next corner when walking as an adult, or perhaps even a real life trauma occurred that left you afraid.  Whatever the context or reason, we need to start utilizing the dark and reclaiming all of the power that we have lent to our crazy abyss of fears.
 
   There's an illusion that darkness not only hides things, but actually creates certain monsters.  Certainly the dark has an ability to makes things harder to distinguish, but it's not a breeding ground for bad things.  Sometimes we can even run to the darkness to hide; we stuff our skeletons where people can't see them, hoping they never surface.  And maybe that's really why we're afraid of the dark....because we know what kind of secrets we've stashed there.  Inevitably though, the sun always shines, and our junk comes flying out unexpectedly like a jack-in-the-box.  Our darkness is now overflowing into our light.  Now what?  Usually we stuff it back down and keep pretending, all the while keeping our nightmares intact.  We illuminate our fear of night because we've convinced ourselves that there's a difference between night and day, exposed and hidden.

   Psalm 139:11-12 says, 'I could ask the darkness to hide me and the light around me to become night-but even in darkness I cannot hide from you.  To you the night shines as bright as day.  Darkness and light are the same to you.'

   Wait.  Did you hear that?!  Darkness and light are the same to God!  When we are in His light...He is with us and sees our every intention.  When we shamefully run into the dark looking to hide from Him....He is already there.  And where He is, there is no darkness.  And sometimes, just sometimes, God lets us fumble around in the dark until we find him there.  Sometimes there are truths found in the darkness that can't be found in the light. 

   In Exodus when Moses was on Mount Sinai and God was passing by him, he hid Moses in the cleft of the rock.  He put his hand over him, shrouding him in complete darkness, until he passed and could safely exit the mountain.  Sometimes we want to run from the dark because our imaginations run wild.  Most of the time though, we are simply to search out God's light and trust that the reason things look so dark is because the very hand of God is upon us.  Covering us.  Protecting us from all of the unseen dangers.  When we find the light while we are yet in the darkness...the truth tends to stay with us longer.  Because we've been there, and the truth of the light works.  It's undisputed, reliable, tested and true.  If you search for Him...he has promised that you will find him.  Especially in the dark!. 

Saturday, March 31, 2012

:Grace:

If truth should really be told,
We find that we all fall short.
And as we digress, we collect stow aways;
tokens of lies that lodge in the shell of our lives.
Our bodies tell us what our minds repress.

Immersed in death,
And all because we stopped asking the right questions...

I fell.  I fall.  I qualify because of....

And grace?
She walks with us,
In every soiled step we take.

We are misled by lies that promise passion.
But I have never felt the kiss...
Have you?
Only the sting and staleness of a cold cold death.

If truth be told,
There is no guarantee that says we stop falling.
But...the landing place is different.
Safer.

We fell...
Into His arms.
And after that,
We aren't so easily confused.
We no longer accept destruction for beauty.

And as we go right on falling,
Grace goes right on catching!


Monday, March 26, 2012

Out with the Old, In with the New

::crickets::

I know it's been so long since I've written, sigh, but I have just been one tired mama. 
Between apartment hunting, homeschooling, spring cleaning, rearranging, and running endless errands, I have been one totally burnt lady. 

Now with a house in mind and our current house all clean and organized....it'll be time to start packing before we know it.  Ugh and yay!  I am excited for the big changes that are coming...namely little boy number 3 due to arrive in early June.  But I am getting extremely stoked about the new house, new endeavors, and the simplicity I swear I will adhere to no matter what life brings.  With all of the newness that is coming I have truly been able to see my life and what really matters with far more clarity than I have in the past.  All I want my life's focus to be is God, my family, and the people I hold so dear to my heart. 

Let's all rid our lives of the things that just lag us down with weight and are void of life.  With the beauty sprouting all around us, let's remember our true place in this world and make time to be that beauty for the people around us.   Our lives are truly for one another....not things....or places....but the simplicity of relationship.  And if you let everything go that shouldn't have a hold on your heart, you will find peace, and in that peace, you will learn to live fully alive.

Happy Spring everyone!

Wednesday, March 7, 2012

A Pukey Hibernation

I've finally come out of my weekend hibernation.  It wasn't a pleasant or relaxing hibernation.  More like the kind where you're curled up and fetal, crying for your mommy as you battle your gut-wrenching queasiness.  I am thankful though that the pukes were short lived because I am pregnant and have nothing else for my body to surrender.
 
As a busy mom, the idea seemed thrilling (sick or not) to hold this golden pass that allowed me to stay in bed and be waited on all day.  Oh...and the sweet bliss of sleep!  So with the guilt gone, my husband took over my duties, as he selflessly put his on hold.  And I slept.  It was interrupted with bathroom trips, little rowdy boys climbing on me for hugs, my husband forcing me to stay hydrated, and my body just waking itself to remind me just how crummy I really felt.

BUT...two days after my sleepathon, I awoke to reality.  I felt better!  My responsibility-free days were over.  So I did what any self-respecting mom and wife would do.......I milked one more l o n g nap, then got to my feet and again tied the apron strings.