For some time now I have been sensing very strongly that God wants me to start building some alters. To take these monumental events in my life, where I have recognized such a remarkable and profound truth, and to practice remembering them daily. To cultivate a heart of gratitude. To be grateful you cannot forget what was done for you (and through you). To stop in my tracks when there's revelation, and to build something that I can physically see for when my heart wants to forget. An alter that I can lay myself on as a living sacrifice and let Jesus receive me...and in turn, being filled with him. An alter that sets my standards a little higher than previous ones. To remind me of where a God so great, met me, a woman that's not so great, but so very loved. An alter that will show me not to look in the shadows for answers, but in the sunshine of His presence, where He becomes all of my needs.
When my many alters are well established, it will be that much easier to set my energies on them; reliving the power of those moments, resetting my affections and my focus on something greater than the present moment. I will set my eyes on eternity, not carnal reality. Then and only then, will there be no time left in my day to maintain any regrets or failures or poor self image. My mind and sight will be established on something rock solid. Something so far removed from myself that it causes a piece of the broken me to die, and my true self to be emboldened not only with knowing that God can do anything for me...but that he wants to do everything for me...and with me!
